I think I need some opinions on this

[fish]

PS - Mel,
Don't think we're wanting socialism (too many equate the word with communism)- but compassionate capitalism would be a welcome change!

Fish

[Mel46]

I have mentioned to my wife multiple times that I wish I could go to a hypnotist who could make the pain go away, but I am guessing that it does not work that way or many others would have done that already.

That means, to me, that any progress will be up to ME. Notice that I said me, not the PA. I am the one who has to face this pain every morning when I wake up...and during the night when I am awakened by it. It is easy for someone, like the PA or my wife, to say, "Why don't you just get off of them all together. It is all in your head." They aren't the ones in pain. They aren't the ones that went through 12 back surgeries.

I HAVE to believe that my wife has my best interests at heart, but I can see plainly that the PA does not. Instead, she has a goal, and that goal does not involve humans. Just numbers. She saw what happened the last time she shoved the new prescription at me and stated that I could "Take it or leave it". I spent most of that month in bed. Did she? Did she wake up to constant pain, or go back to bed because of It? Of course not. But to her I am a number.

I will give the psychologist a shot. It may help, or it may not. I won't know till I go to see her.